Whoever said that the final year of college is extremely cool, should be forcefully made to eat his words up and I wish he chokes on them. Right now, there is such frenzy around with respect to academics, future plans, preparations to realise that future, pressure of coping with the recession and a nagging uneasiness that one year hence we will be at crossroads again.
For the umpteenth time in your life, everbody around tells you that if you somehow successfully manage things "this" time around, all will be good with your life. The truth, as we all have realised by now, is that things will never be that simple... ever. And yeah, I am totally cool with that. Life presents its challenges and you waddle through them and also try to enjoy while you are here on this earth. But then why do you take the trouble?
Ok, I am totally digressing from the theme that I had in mind when I started writing this post. Now that I have brought up this point, I would also mention that this question has often perturbed me, as I am sure it would have all of you readers (if there are any!! :D). Thinking about all this is pretty unnerving and it totally screws up your head.
Why do we imperil all our comfort and happiness in the present moment just to realise the same things at a later stage. Why are people expected to live their life to the fullest and have a passion for what they do.. blah blah. When you came into this world, you, as an individual, had no say in it! All this is as complicated as the big bang. Your birth was your big bang! Before that, there was nothing... People have found out ways to convince themselves of a larger motive behind all this. They charted out concepts of rebirth and how you live 84000 lives and try and attain nirvana. The question is if the human being is an imperfect being looking to seek that perfect balance, WHO created this anamoly in the form of a being? All this looks like a divine program code, but who is running this and why? Is God himself seeking some answers by changing the codes and generating new sub-programs? Do we really have a choice in deciding the course of our life or is this just a predecided simulation... slowly leading to an end.
I had taken up a course in philosophy in my second year which talked of concepts like the Deus Deceptor and "brain in a vat" wherein people had deliberated as to the entire world could be a dream that our brain was dreaming. Then, of course, we would never know because there could be no world we could wake up into. At times, I too feel like I am recalling my entire life and am presently a grown up individual. The only evidence for reality are our physical senses and they are as good as anything in our dreams as well. Hence..! Phew... I have had enough!
I guess the best policy is... enjoy the moment!
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